MISSIONARY JOURNAL OF
JOSEPHINE CLUFF JONES KIMBALL
Josephine (above) (or, Nonnie, as called by her decendants, and Josie as called by her extended family and friends) is the mother of Eliza Arnetta (Nettie) Phillips, who was the mother of Edward Virgil Phillips, who was the father of David R. Phillips, who was the father of Preston, Elliott, Camille, and Starr Phillips. David R. Phlillips
Josephine (Jo) ( and Granny Jo) Phillips McBride--spouse of Darvil Burns McBride, is also the daughter of Eliza Arnetta (Nettie) Phillips and the brother of Edward Virgil Phillips above. Josephine Phillips McBride is the mother of Darvil David (Mac) McBride, Jon Robert McBride and Sally Jo McBride Porter Butterfield. Josephine was named after her grandmother, “Josephine.” (Just one name, without a middle name, of which she is appropriatly proud.) This is
speaks of Jeanetta
McKay, her companion, and we knoow that she was
the sister of David O. McKay. Wwe also know that because of her ill
health, her mother and father (Senator McKay) arrived in the mission
early to take her home. Note: Entries are
numbered to coincide with the journal pages. David R.
Savior Jesus Christ, and try to apply them in our daily life as well as
in our missionary work. Elder
Feb. 1st - Tonight the Fair closes, and after all I wonder
whether I am glad or sorry. I can tell better in a
few weeks. The work here has been very pleasant and
at times it has been hard, but there are many other conditions in life
that might be far worse. Today the children of
I had a most interesting and satisfactory conversation
with a highly educated and liberal minded man this evening just before
time to close up. It began about Mormon women.
I gave him a spray from the vines as a souvenir, and said
"Whom shall I thank for this?" I said "A Mormon
woman." Then he asked me numberless questions
regarding our faith and customs. Of course,
polygamy was a leading feature and I admired the delicate way in which
he asked about it, and his liberal views in regard to religion.
He had heard that Mormons were the happiest people in the
world, that there was more purity and virtue
I feel sometimes that a poor, weak, mortal was chosen when
I was to be an ambassador in Christ's name, for I never satisfy myself,
and after a conversation, I can always think of how much plainer I
might have put it, or perhaps did not say the right thing in the right
place. Brother McKay gives me great comfort and has
faith in me that I shall do a good work. Heavenly
Father, help me to do it, and keep true and pure before them.
This morning I gave "Christ's first Coming." How
beautiful to know that in that grand council which was called in
Heaven, we all had a voice in and knew, partially, what our coming
It seems impossible to write today in my book.
For two days I have had to stay in on account of taking a
chill on Monday at the
13. Our first snowstorm fell beginning Sunday
afternoon, slowly and silently until the ground was covered by a pure,
white coat. Our Sunday meeting was not very well
attended and there being a scarcity of speakers Brother Wootin called
me to speak. I responded with fear and trembling
and spoke on the holy ordinances of the sacrament, how it originated
and out of what it grew. The Lord blesses me when I
depend and rely entirely upon Him. Not that I spoke
even well, but there is a joy and satisfaction in trying to do the 11.
bidding of those placed over me. There
were several others who spoke and our meeting was quite interesting if
it was few in numbers. The bass got wrong in the
second verse of the hymn and Brother Dean closed his book with a snap
and sat down. At night our Mutual was also poorly
attended on account of the snow storm. Our subject
is the authenticity of the Book of Mormon. In the
Sunday School I have been appointed Primary class teacher which office
is so new to me and I feel that I shall but poorly fill in the absence
of Sister McKay. We are to have an entertainment
for Christmas Sunday and the little ones are very anxious to do their
best. The religion class has also been 12.
-- put in my charge at which I am a poor teacher.
I fear and I can only do anything at it --- the aid and
assistance of the Lord.. I have had several
interesting letters from home. They are
strengthening and sustaining in one way if disappointing in another.
I'd rather the news entertained. But
there is a divinity that shapes our ends --- ---as we will.
Our faith in the promises of the Lord will sustain those
concerned. Yesterday Sister "B" and I went to visit
the McAuley sisters and from there to Mr. and Mrs. Card who, though not
L.D.S., have expressed to Sister McAuley a desire to have some of the
"Mormons" come to see them. They are an old couple
and we're expecting that in the near future13. the
Master will call for them to go. They received us
very cordially, took us to the parlor and lit the fired, insisted that
we stay as long as possible. Mr Card says he is a
Mormon, but thinks it not necessary to be baptized. So
we gave him a talk on baptism - the necessity of it which made him look
very thoughtful and ask many questions. Mrs. Card
says she is a Methodist and will always remain so, but hopes we will
come to see them just as often as we can make it convenient.
She asked us to sing and pray. We sang
"Guide Me to Thee", and "Do What is Right". As it
was getting late we closed our first cottage meeting with a prayer, I
being mouth and after a pressing
Dec. 14. This morning we went to visit
Mrs "E" - who is not a L.D.S.and who is also bitterly opposed to her
husband doing anything in the church, he being a member. Did
not find her at home. Came back and we accompanied
Sister Marin to the matinee at the Grand. "The Sign
of the Cross" was played by rather a poor company. Came
home in the cold and found father "M" with dinner ready. Saw
Bro. Dean who is much exercised by the testimony given in
Dec 20. The weather still continues
cold, the apartments covered with ice. Last week I
had a pleasant surprise and a very substantial present. The
R.S. of Thatcher of which organization I am a member, sent me --- as a
token of good will and to assist me in defraying my missionary expenses.
It was so entirely unexpected and so welcome, that I was
almost overcome for a few moments -- this thought of their kind
consideration. Those sisters have my heartfelt
thanks, not more for the substantiality of it, than the loving thoughts
which prompted-- We held several cottage meetings
last week and they were very instructive and, I hope, did some good.
17. Thursday, Dec. 22nd. Today I went to hold religion class and called on Sister Lockett who has a young babe. She has three sweet children who belong to my S. S. class and are regular attendants. While the mother belongs to the L.D.S. church and tries to have her children taught in the gospel, the father does not belong and will not allow his children to be baptized, at least until they are older. The three have now reached the years of accountability and would like to be baptized, which wish I hope they will some day soon realize. I had a very pleasant visit at Sister Payton's. Mr. Payton was there and although he is very narrow in his views regarding some things, still on others very sensible. While he does 18. not believe in the religion of Christ, he has a great many liberal views concerning them, and I do hope and pray that for the sake of their families if not for their own, they will some day join the church, that is Mr. Lockett and Mr. Payton. We had a Religion class in Sister Payton's parlor as usual, with five in attendance, and a very enjoyable half hour. The children seem to be very much interested in their work and take a great delight in learning. We are arranging a small organ for Sunday services, it being Christmas day. After class ended, I remained until six talking with the Payton's on different principles of the Gospel and returned home just in time for dinner.
21. 24th - This has been a very busy day for us all. I did Sr. Martin's ironing this morning and helped to make candy for our guests which numbered about twenty. The door bell has been on a continual ring this whole day so we got to saying "another Christmas gift", and all break for the door. The Elders and Brother Martin have helped us in whatever they could do, and have made themselves generally useful. I got tired of the confusion and noise so taking some tracts about , I went out for a while, and had some very good conversations with some ladies while they made their Christmas cake or mopped their front door-steps. I felt much better and soothed, so --- over on --- looked up some Christmas cards 22. -- my Sunday School class then on home. The rain was falling -- heapidly, but I felt repaid for carrying out and distributing my 27 tracts. After dinner Bro. Martin and I decorated the parlor and dining room in honor of the next day. Sister B. and I filled the Elder's socks. We went down in the laundry where they hung, took them a few potatoes and apples, came up and carefully rolled each in some paper, putting a pretty tie in them too, these on top with a musical instrument projecting from the top. We then took a stout string, pinned them to it, tying one end to their door knobs and the other end to a convenient closet door. It was when we went to bed, and my tired Elder S. feels keenly 23. this separation from his young wife, and the babe he has never seen. One can tell he is a "mother's boy" for he loves to tell of his mother, sisters, and wife and baby. He is a very manly boy; very aristocratic, and only 23 years old. We all think a great deal of him as, in fact, we do of all the Elders. Each has his distinct individuality and good qualities though in a different way. We all feel keenly this separation from our loved ones, and express our sympathy to each other more by action than looks or words. There are times when one cannot talk of some things. We realize we are in God's hands and trying to do His will, if it were not for the comfort in this thought, our being away would be bad indeed. --- --- the Elders 24. have received letters and tokens from relatives and friends and we are glad for we sympathize with them in their sorrow and their joy. Oh what would we do in this cold and unbelieving world were it not for the love and sympathy of our dear ones, and especially those who are separated from all they love most dearly. --- formed among missionaries are so strong that I believe they last throughout the eternities. I trust it will be so for there is no people with whom I would rather associate than the missionaries we met in the Central States.
25th - Sunday.. Christmas day - The first in my life to spend away from my darling children. I hope 25. they are happy today. When I rose this morning my first thoughts and prayers were for them, that in the coming year they might be blessed, prosper, and progress in the work of the Lord. That they might more fully understand and comprehend the necessity of living more correct lives. I will not think of home today more than I can possibly help for fear I lose control of my feelings. Our meeting and exercises were very successful. The little ones did very well in their part of the program. I had to waken Bernie and Charlie who had fallen asleep in their chairs. Their singing was very good indeed. Sister ---, Elder Wootton, talked on why we celebrate Christmas, Elder 26. --- sang "Kind Words", Sister Cluff (Note: Nonnie) recited "Jamie". Sister P. read and altogether we had a very enjoyable time. My especial guests were the McAuley girls and we came home together with the Elders. I found a letter from Sister Bessie, a card from Lavinia --- and a letter from -- Janetta (McKay), all containing many happy wishes for Christmas and New Years. Very soon our guests began to arrive and the house---. There was much noise, talk, laughter, singing, and conversation, in which all joined. ---Lilly and Katie who are so very ---. Dinner was a grand success, for Sister Martin knows how to cook well. Twenty of us seated ourselves at the board and Bro. --Dean returned thanks. We 27. were a long time at this table, but everything must have an end so we adjourned to the parlor when each had expressed himself satisfied. Our guests remained for the evening and departed at a late hour, each wondering where we would be next Christmas. The boys from the college are bright, witty, fellows and made a great deal of fun for us all. So ends my St. Louis Christmas. So much in my life has been revolutionized in the last year. After a calm, even --- of fourteen years that I shall not even try to imagine where of what I shall be in one year from this time. But whatever comes, I hope I may be able to stand firm and steadfast in the faith.
Dec. 26th. Today by the second mail came a lovely
fruit cake from Cynthia (
27th, 1904I have several times proposed having class in the morning but
the proposal is met in silence. It seems so aimless
to useless and wrong to be here doing nothing toward our work and
besides our expenses, that feel condemned and put in the
31. Dec. 29. The old year is drawing to a close, but few more days are left. Not having felt very well for a few weeks past, I decided to take (calomet?) today so this morning I began. It has made me quite indisposed all day but trust it may be for my health's benefit in the end. The Elders all went out to the Fairgrounds today to wind up the last of their affairs, and having done so satisfactorily, came home feeling quite lively. Sister Martin went to call on her friends, the Ashley's, so Sister B. and I had the house to oversee. How silent it was for hours and I quite appreciated it myself, though Sister B. didn't.
Dec. 30 - 04. This morning I went down town to do a little
shopping. One would --- to see the number of people
on the streets that this holiday -- just coming on. Dense
throngs at the crossings and it requires a policeman to keep the people
from being run over by cars and vehicles of all descriptions.
My photos were not finished so I took the streetcar and
went on up into North St. Louis -- at the McAuley home, found them out
then went on to Mr. Cards. He was very glad to see
me as his wife was washing and he alone. He tells
me he has been an invalid for fourteen years from asthma and felt
unusually ailing this ---. He loves to talk of the
33. principles of the gospel and we had a very
entertaining conversation. Very soon Mrs. Card left
her work and came in to join the conversation. She
is a strong character and her husband is very anxious that she should
see as he does. But although she is favorable and
is very much attached to all the Latter Day Saints she has met, yet she
tells me every time I go that she will live and die a Methodist.
Before leaving, at their request, I prayed with them, and
they seemed to appreciate my visit very much. I
came home in the hope of hearing from Nettie, but no letter.
It is now eleven days since I heard from her.
Dec. 31st. The last day of the old
year and tomorrow ushers in another year book of life whose pages I
trust, mine at least - will be without blemish at the end. It
is so easy to make good resolutions but sometimes hard to keep them.
We need not unless we seek at the right fountain.
A beautiful passage comes to mind in John: 4, that "whoso
drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst.
But the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well
of water springing up into everlasting life." What
a beautiful promise to us, the children of God, but few seem to seek
often those blessings and promises.
Jan 1 - 1905. May the few remaining pages of my life
be without spot of blemish, just as I now write this clean white page.
May I through my faithfulness enter into His rest when my
time in mortality id done. --- could push ajar
these gates of life understand within and all God's work --- see.
-- interpret all this doubt and strife -- for each mystery
find there the key. --not today. Then
rest content -- heart. --plans like lilies white and -- unfold -- must
not tear the cloth?----leave apart -- will reveal the --- of gold.
--if through patient toil we --- the land.
Where tired feet with sandals loosed may rest, where we
shall clearly know and understand. I think that we
shall say God knew the best. Our Sunday school and meetings are always
good, but both seemed especially good this morning. It
may have been because it was a fast day and my heart seemed tuned to a
good spirit. Certain it is that I have never
enjoyed any Sunday so much since leaving home. A
good spirit prevailed everywhere, and although a re-organized Broth. a
Mr. Mason of Apostasy fame years ago in
I practiced singing for a while in the parlor.
Elder Lavon sang several songs among which was "I Love You
Yet", a song Nettie used often to sing. It took me
back to the days in Central when we lived on the little farm.
I had both my children with me in our little home and we
were so happy. But those days can never return.
I suppose I should not mourn over them but I have never
been happier than when we three could kneel at night before our
Heavenly Father and ask his protection over us. The
children are grown, we are all scattered and what will be the end of it
all? A letter, at last, from Nettie tells me
Wallace is over for the holidays. I trust
everything will turn out for his best good, and if the Lord will
that he may have employment at home, and not have to go
3 - Today my companion and I went out to
4th - We walked into
there seems to be something attractive in it or we would
not be invited again. We try to feel what we sing
and so the Lord gives us strength. The Mrs. Y.
would not listen to our coming before lunch so she tastefully prepared
a hasty one in the dining room of which we partook. After
accepting an invitation to hold a meeting there next week, we took the
car and got home about . After
eating dinner Elder Spilsbury and I went to the
that no one was home, all having gone to see "Camille" at
the Odeon. Quite a party of us gathered in the
parlor where we talked over the merits of the plays. This
morning Elders Wootton and Spilsbury received word from
5th, 1905 - Received a letter this morning from Pres. Kimball (note:
Andrew C. Kimball - St. Joseph Stake - Andrew Kimball's wife died a
short time later and he married Josephine Cluff June 8, 1907) which was
very encouraging to me. He seems to have the
interests of the missionaries from that stake at heart. Everyone
is good to me and mine. I wrote to both the
children today. They can hardly reconcile
themselves to my long absence. I walked in
6 - The snow fell in first large and then small flakes all day.
I did my washing in the morning then studied and read in
the afternoon. It seems to be like time wasted when
we do not go out tracting at least a part of the day. In
the evening 48. we started out for Bro. Hertob to hold a
cottage meeting, but it being so stormy, he had gone back to his work
thinking we would not come. We walked back to
49. Jan 8. - Today the storm continues but this afternoon we took our tracts under our arm and off we started. Pulled up at Mrs. Ashley's who is a very entertaining lady. Spent an hour with her and distributed the remainder of our tracts on or way home. Tonight the Elders leave.
14 - Elder D. C. Clayton cane over from
15. My forty fifth milestone reached today.
In looking back on the years of my life I am led to wonder
if I have any more than that half fulfilled my destiny, and will the
future bring me joy or sorrow? One thing I am
determined on and that is to try to spend my life or what is left of it
in trying to do good to my fellow men.
One of the Elders, D. C. Clayton, had his birthday also
and Sister Martin made us a lovely dinner and a large, beautiful cake.
I cut one side of it and he the other. There
was merry conversation, jests and laughter and all enjoyed the dinner.
Word came yesterday that our conference will be held in
St. Joe on the 4 and 5 of Feb. and that we sisters would be retained in
23rd - We spent the week in tracting and visiting though it was bad
under foot. There are many conversations I might
record that would be interesting to read but it takes so much time that
I might be studying. Pres. Duffin came in for a few
hours last Thursday the 17th, his first visit since his return from
Jan 24. - In class this morning, Elder Clayton read from
Vol. I. Church History, which I have taken up, and the reading
terminates with Priesthood by J. B. K.---take the place of the talks we
formerly had and are very interesting and instructive, for in our
conversations nearly every day something concerning one of both comes
up. Yesterday while canvassing, we were invited in
by a lovely lady, Mrs. M. G. McOnmisk,
28. Saturday night - The past few days have been
passed in tracting and visiting among our new friends. We
have tried to bless and cheer those dear people. when
a field is opening up as it seems to be here, we feel reluctant to
leave what appears splendid opportunities to do some good work.
However we are willing to do whatever we are called on to
do. 61. This morning letters came from Nettie and
31st - Yesterday we started to make some visits - as a sort of farewell
- to the saints we had not 63. had the opportunity
of seeing recently. Called on Mrs. Grill who
welcomed us with a hearty shake of the hand. She is
feeling much better than when we first talked with her. She
seems to think this religion we have been talking to her about is just
what she has been looking for. When we arrived she
was reading our "Record of Living Light." Her
children she has found are the pride of her heart and she has worked
very hard to give them an education. We talked on
polygamy - she introducing the subject. It seems
that she had told some of her friends of our visit and they had --- her
for welcoming Mormon women into her home, but unconsciously we found
she had been not only defended 64. Mormons, but had
defended that principle. At her request we sang two
songs and prayed with her. Then with tears in her
eyes she bade us good bye and we went down the block to see our old
lady H---. We found her with her two canaries and
two little dogs. She was overjoyed to see us and
asked for us to sing her "Weary Not" and "Oh My Father". She
said "That is beautiful, my dears, it sounds like the angels."
After spending a half hour with her, conversing on the
gospel, singing, praying, with many "God bless you, my dears" and hand
shakes amid tears, and fervent prayer for our safety from the dear old
lady who wished she had something to give us, we 65. called
on Mrs. Burrell, the lady whose husband treated us on the Pike one
night to this Irish Theater and a ride on the Scenic R. R..
Foiund her washing, and the little fellow who has been ill
alright and around again. I always think it is a
pity when a man and woman make the mistake of marrying when they belong
to different faiths. Such is the case in this
instance. The mother is quite indifferent to
religion and teaches the children - they have their little ones -
anything but reverence for her things, which naturally is a --- to the
father who would like them to be taught those things which would be for
their spiritual welfare. She is just a society woman
75. After a long ride -- and a cold one ---, we --- to find scarcely a path broken through the snow which lay a foot deep. After trampling through it for several blocks and getting wet to our knees, we at last arrived at the door, where a warm welcome and good fire awaited us. Some of the sisters served, others basted while I was elected to read from the history of the Prophet Joseph's life. Two hours were thus passed pleasantly and profitably when after singing and prayer, we were directed to the car by a different route so as to avoid the snow, and returned to 1405 just at dark. The next three days were spent in visiting friends and holding such beautiful and inspiring cottage meetings. One such lady whom we visited 76. at the hospital was overjoyed to see Sister Thomas, who indeed seems to be an exceedingly welcome visitor whereever she goes. We sang and prayed with this lady, Sister Sands, and then we had a conversation of the principles of the Gospel. Several times while we sat there in the little clean white room, the Sister - or nurse - came in to see her patient treading noiselessly in her slippers and speaking very low. Everything about the room and occupant was scrupulously clean and neat. We left after about an hour and called on Bro. and Sister Anderson, finding them well with the exception of colds. At this time of the year, the --- being so variable, there 77. seems to be a great deal of sickness whereever we go.
Feb. 12. - This morning we all assembled in the office at
for singing and prayer, and we then practiced several songs for Sunday
School which, and meeting also, are held here in the parlor of the
mission house. At attended S.S. teachers
meeting which I was placed in charge of --- Intermediate class which is
in the Book of Mormon. There were several persons
at the interview or meeting rather. Then S.S.
convened at at which there were twenty
teachers and members. When it closed, Pres. ---
asked me if I would go to
80. ward, about dinner was served at which we all partook, there being ten persons at the table. Altho the weather was extremely cold, and they insisted that we stay the night, we feared to do so for fear of the rules at the Mission House. At we re-assembled for regular Services. After singing and prayer I was called to address the Saints which I did, asking the Spirit of God to direct me, and I have never felt so much before a rich outpouring of it. I spoke of our prior existence choosing our parents and how thankful we should be that we are permitted to come forth in this great and momentous dispensation through honorable parentage.
I also spoke of being --- of plural marriage, and never
once during all the service have I even spoken of that but what I have
felt strengthened and built up. Elder Clayton
followed with a grand talk on the duties of the saints and the
obligations we owe to our Heavenly Father. He has a
fine voice and good command of language and we enjoyed his talk
extremely well, for he spoke by the Spirit of God. After
singing and dismissal, the objection was again raised to my going home.
So that it was even ruled and I remained for the night.
It was indeed a cold night, registering 26 degrees below
zero, so they 82. found little difficulty in keeping me.
Elder Clayton returned and spent the time until
talking of the early days of the church and the property and probable
use - that which was recently bought. (Note:
Probable time of purchase of
On arriving at the house, I was kindly and warmly greeted,
Pres. W. declaring he was glad I did not come last night in the cold.
After dinner Sister B. and I went out visiting among her
friends, but the afternoon being so extremely cold, we did not stay
long. In the evening, Priesthood
testimony meeting was held at which nearly all spoke and a lovely
feeling pervaded the assembly. In the afternoon, we
had had a telephone message that Pres.Duffin was snowbound at
Feb. 14. A letter from Luke and Sister
Martin came this morning. I have not heard from
home for more than two weeks and cannot imagine what is the matter.
But there have probably been heavy rains washing out the
Feb. 15th. This morning a letter came
from Uncle Harvey (Note: Her mother's brother) from
whom I am very glad to hear. In it was enclosed a
clipping from the Enquirer in which Bennie ---dilates (expounds) upon
the advantages of Tobasco in C. A. He seems to think that it is the
making of a fine place. Pa will come home unless
Aunt consents to go South. Uncle has at last found,
through his cousin Elva Burke, 85. a link in the
genealogy of Grandfather Cluff's family wich he has long desired, so
that the family is now an unbroken chain of eight generations back even
til our forefathers came over in 1635. We are
rejoiced to hear this. Pres. Duffin and Pres.
Ellsworth came in from Jay last night where they have been to
conference. Altho' the weather was extremely
cold they had a spiritual feast. Ten Elders also
came, who were on to their fields of labor too. The
class was addressed this morning by Pres.E. who gave quite a talk on
the duties of missionaries. Pres. D. followed.
This afternoon Sister B. and I went to work at tracting
in the near neighborhood, and there invited into a lady's
house who is a Scientist and had some little conversation on healing,
but no impression was made, so we did not stay long. We
worked in a new neighborhood for a while then called on some friends
who were delighted to have us come. We held a cottage meeting with Mrs.
R. and a visiting lady, Mrs. Scott and daughter. Had
a most rich outpouring of the Spirit of the Lord, and these ladies were
fervent investigators. A Mrs. Craig also welcomed
us warmly and we spent a moment in conversation with her. She
Thursday. Feb. 16. -05 In
tracting today we met a variety of characters. First
a Pentacostal woman who seemed to know everything and at first she was
very stiff, but gradually melted and finally we had a good little talk,
principally on faith and healing. I am disabused of
the idea that there are no gifts otuside our church. I
find that the gift of healing and tongues is enjoyed by the
--- 26. Have been confined to my room
with a boil on my face since Thursday, now four days. Yesterday
I could not go to S.S. or even regular Services in the ---.
Letters from home came to me, to cheer me, papers also.
And the day did not seem so long afterall. But
it is dreary work, staying in bed and so much of the Lord's work to be
done. A letter from the Southern States written by
Powell Cosby who is laboring in that part, tells me he has the Spirit
of his mission. Others of our
23. I have been steadily at work in the office
except that yesterday we three went over to K.C.,
The work in the office is very pleasant. The
Elders all are good conversationalists and our themes are generally on
the different principles of the Gospel. We often
have Elders who are taken into the sick parlor and entertained by
everyone not engaged in work. Oour time passes
pleasantly and profitably. My face is almost
entirely well and next week I can resume my regular work. Sister
Morrison, to whom we all have taken such a notion, has been quite ill
for two days. As soon as her health will permit she
will return to her home and family in
The work in the office is still progressing. Our
Elder here is the personification of all that is sweet, lively and
innocent. I always connect him with Joseph Smith in
some indefinable way. His forehead, nose, and hair
resemble the Prophet and I never heard him speak unless he mentioned
the Prophet's name in some manner. I wonder if
there is an affinity of, or congeniality or relationship of souls or
spirit. He is only 22 and a son any mother might be
proud of. We got to talking on the Book of Mormon
last night and both learned something new to think. He
is so sweet to everyone. When I was sick last week
he saw that the furnace was kept going and the heat sent to my room
Today while we were all writing, the bell rang and as I
was near the hall door, Elder Stratford asked me to answer as he had
seen somebody come up the walk. I did and at the
steps stood a tall, slight lady with restless eyes and a nervous manner.
She asked me if I remembered her, and being answered in
the negative, explained that she had met me at
She talked a great deal at random and we each heaved a
sigh of relief when she had gone, for she is possessed of an evil
spirit. She joined the church nine years ago but
had drifted away, and although she sometimes --- to think and act like
she would like to come back, yet she seemed in fear of her husband.
She asked to come back and the Elders assented, but I fear
she is not one for good.
25. This afternoon sister B. and I started out to
tract and had a very pleasant time. One poor lady
who is afflicted in her face with nervous twitching, kindly invited us
in an seemed very intelligent on the principles of religion.
She 97. invited us to come again and talked
longer. At several places we were received kindly
and at I came home to meet Sister
27. This morning a letter from Sister K. (Note:
Sister K. must be Sister Olive Kimball, wife and Andrew C., mother of
Spencer W.) tells me Nettie's baby (Note:
28. Just nine months today since I came into
Mar. 1st. The two sisters were guite
ill last night and the consequences are I feel sleepy and dull today.
My lesson was "Foreordination" this morning and I came to
the conclusion whjile studying it that a great majority of us had not
taken the opportunities presented and thereby missed our vocation and
never filled the mission our Father foreordained us to. We
will have the pleasure of seeing others fill those places we might have
done. Waht a pity we cannot sense our duties as
they come one by one each day as it is lived out, and realize to the
fullest extent that this life is a mere probationary school, to fit and
qualify us for that great and glorious life which is to come.
103. I am very uneasy about matters at home. The news of the dear little baby's sickness is so vague. I am greatly troubled over him. Why the mail is so long delayed I cannot imagine. God keep my loved ones from every evil while I am away.
4. The recent heavy rains have washed out the roads
so badly, and the mail had been delayed, consequently my letters did
not come for several days after my last entry. But
all is well and my mind is at ease. Having heard
from all my dear ones this week, I can settle down to good, solid work
this ---day morning. Through the influence of my
interested friends, the position of Matron and teacher ha been secured
for me in the Academy at 104. an advanced salary.
For this I am truly thankful to both my Heavenly Father
and friends, that my way will be opened for me to go right in school
and repair in a --- way the money I have had to spend. The
promises given me before I left home are being literally fulfilled.
The Lord blesses me every day of my life. Our
workstill continues but the results seem slow in being realized.
We go to the homes of the rich - they have no time to even
talk on the Gospel. Too many demands are made by
society on their time to give a few moments to the humble missionary
who stands at their door, seeking only their good and welfare for a
life to come. We go to the poorer class, and must
105. listen to their tales of wrong. How
their husbands have left them in poverty and wretchedness to consort
with other women. These tales, some of them, are
sickening in their nature. I have never thought or
realized how lightly the marriage covenant is held by the people of the
world, and I never realized either the sacredness of such a contract
until I studied the Gospel. If one strove to
understand these things better, there would not be the mistakes made
which are made every year, day, even hour. If young
people could be taught and made to understand how sacred and binding
our covenants are, we would be a better and more blest people and
realize that we do not live for today but for a grand and glorious
106. (Note: pages 106-107 missing)
108. had power, through Christ, to convert Zeezrom. Read 31st Chapter, also --- is a magnetic speaker and all who listened were much interested. After services all gathered in the back parlor, and Sister R., an afflicted lady, was administered to by Elders Morrison and Grant. We had a most profitable day and I only regret being present at but one meeting.
6th. This morning Pres. McRae addressed the class
and his subject was faith. He thought we should, in
our writing to our families, friends and associates, try to inspire
them with faith in the leaders of the church. That
in his last visit home, he had noticed a tendency on the part 109.
of the young people to censure --- of the apostles and
even Jos. F. Smith himself, over the Smoot investigation affair.
And that the older people talked of it disparagingly
before their children, which is entirely wrong. We
could show them that the harm is not coming to the people of the world,
but that the unfaithfulness of our own people, through people
conversing and giving opinion upon something they do not understand,
thereby engendering in the hearts of the rising generation, thoughts
and feelings that will eventually upset the foundation of the structure
of faith, upon which they are building. And I
believe it is necessary for a work to be done at home among our young.
He also spoke on the necessity of punctuality.
Said when the servants ofthe Lord appointed a meeting, the
Lord had his heavenly messengers appointed to meet with us, and if we
were not there, they might get tired of waiting and return.
Punctuality in everything is the foundation to success in
life, and we cannot please our Heavenly Father better than being
punctual in the things pertaining to His kingdom.
Mar. 7. One year ago today I received my missionary call. How swiftly it has passed. Yesterday while out tracting, I knocked at the door of a pleasant looking home, and it was 111. opened by a gentleman who inquired our business. We - or at least I - told him we desired to see the lady of the house, and he said "what for?", she is my wife. I said we were missionaries and had a message to deliver to them. He said "I am a minister, why don't you go to those who need it. If you are a member of the Mormon church, I decline to let you in." And closed the door. Of course, all we could do was to go on, so we did. I was reminded of a passage in the Doc.& Cov. which says "In the day of judgement you shall be judges of that house and condemn them." Section 75, vs. 20 or 21. That is the first time I have been treated in that discourteous way. But one gets accustomed 112. to many things out here that we do not know at home.
9. Both sisters being indisposed today, I took my
bible and tracts and went out alone. First I
visited a sick lady, Mrs. Most, who is convalescing from typhoid fever.
She is very weak, and at her request, I read the 14th
chapter of Revelations to her, explaining as I went along. Then
I read and explained each of the Articles of Faith and she was much
interested. When I left she thanked me heartily and
begged me to come again and every day. I then began
I called at another lady's to re-visit, but she was not at
home. Then I thought of Mrs. Sands at the hospital
and went over to see her. It was some distance and
was very tired on my arrival. But the pleasure that
lit her thin, wasted face was enough to bouy me for my long walk.
She has had an operation for gallstones and is mending
slowly. We conversed upon the Gospel which seems a
thing of never-ending delight to her. I read from
the bible several passages and we talked of them, applying them to this
day and time. There are three other patients in
this ward all interesting in their personalities, and I had a
conversation with each, but 115. only for a few moments.
I then set out for home, --- --- call on Sister McCarthy
who is ill. She is one of our Saints. I
found her better and lively as ever I came home at to
find Pres. Duffin had returned from his Southern trip. I
was pleased to see him, his presence does us all good. At
night I attended a cottage meeting in company with Elders Morrison and
Shurtliff and Sis. Thomas. Elder M. and I were the
speakers. We had eleven present; a most attentive
audience they proved to be. After meeting closed,
they asked numberless questions. The family
consists of father, mother, two sons, one grown daughter, and two
nieces. They are investigating the Gospel and we
hope for some converts there.
Mar. 10. This morning was spent in
conversation with Pres. Duffin and then studying our Mutual lesson.
The Elders are very helpful and good, so we got along
nicely. In the afternoon, Sister T. and I went tracting and revisiting.
I spent a profitable time, had two cottage meetings, and
met a few new friends. Some few were cold and did
not take in our tracts. We invariably find purity
and love among the homes where there are little children, and reverse
where there are none, and I am sorry to say these last are in the
majority. Pres. Duffin left for home to attend the
11 - This afternoon, Sister Thomas and I started out for our work after
asking for the Spirit of God to attend us, and I can truly say, He
answered our prayer for we met with the most decided success, holding
four cottage meetings, and were admitted into every home to which we
applied. One lady, Mrs. Col. Cloud who recently was
bereft of her husband, was
Mar 17. The week has passed very
swiftly again, with the usual work of canvassing and revisiting.
On Friday last, we held four cottage meetings and three on
Monday. The Lord blesses us in our endeavors to
open His work. Sister T's reading class so far
seems to be a failure, but we hope for success. On
the 15th the Elders --- the --- of them there came home from
120. we discussed the signs of the time and Christ's coming. Several taking interest in the discussion. Fifteen Elders and three sisters were present, the largest class since conference. Several Elders came in yesterday, some to return home, others to change their field of labor.
20. This is my dear father's anniversary (Note:
Benjamin Cluff)- he is today 75 years old. He is so
far away - down in
March 22nd - 05. Cold much better
today. Yesterday the homeward-bound Elders got off
on the train, after a most
affectionate leave taking. We are always sorrowful
to part with those who have become endeared to us through trials and
struggle and the love missionaries have for each other passeth all
understanding. Elder Livingstone is a man among
men, one of nature's noble men and a choice spirit sent to earth in
these latter days. Elders Larson is another.
He has a fine education, and I have learned many things
from him. Our natures are congenial and many a
pleasant and spiritual talk we have enjoyed.
Sister B. is a good earnest worker and when she has
learned some more of the lessons of life, self-control etc. she will
make a fine woman. The home has settled down and we
are very comfortable and enjoy our work. Sister T.
and I have very good success in tracting and in holding cottage
meetings. Letters from Sisters Nuttall, ---Belle,
March 30. Letters from Thatcher
announce that a large party of home-folks will go to conference, Pres.
Kimball to represent the Stake, also others of the Stake officers.
What a fine time they will have and how they will enjoy it.
I have heard nothing from Nettie for weeks or from Wallace
either. Why do they not write? I
get so impatient at their silence and I wonder if anything out of the
ordinary prevents them from letting me know how they are. Our
work glides smoothly along and in the usual way. No
material change whatever. Yesterday we held R.S.
meeting at Sister Hansen's, the three of us the only ones present.
Something should 128. be done to enliven
this Society or it will die out. Elder Wootton
arrived from Lawrence Co. last Saturday and at his request, which was
made by Mrs. Weaver, one of the saints in that locality, I went way
31st. This morning Elders Farnsworth and Wootten
spoke on character and what should a man cultivate in life to build up
and establish a good foundation. Elder Jensen
followed with good and pertinent remarks relative to the duties and
offices of missionaries. Spoke of the different
denominations and their conception of God. Spoke of
the 130. experience of the Elders while on the
Two sisters named Haskitt came this morning from a place
one hundred miles away to get baptized. They are
earnest and seem to understand the gospel. Pres.
Wootten invited me to go up to
Today twelve of us, four sisters and eight Elders, took
the car for
3rd. Our meeting yesterday afternoon was a failure.
After arriving at
Our visit, to us, seemed very unsatisfactory, but may
possibly be productive of good. The day previous, I
went up to
This Sunday afternoon came the climax to all my fears and
dreads. It was decided to hold a street meeting at down the street in the usual
place. This kind of meeting --- to me, bad enough
at night, but --- the --- glare of day seemed more than I could really
stand. When will the humiliation of standing there
in the street to preach the Gospel and be stared at as we are, leave me?
I never had more humiliating feelings. So
when Elder Morrison called on "Sister Cluff", the first one, if the
earth had opened and --- me down I would have felt --- bad - at least
it seemed so. I do not know what I said, something
about the freedom enjoyed by the common women, how that they are
help-meets and not slaves to their husbands.
That they are respected and honored wherever known, etc.
A newspaper reporter stood by and took down every word I
said, which annoyed me some. But I got through
alive. Coming home, we stopped in and had some ice
cream. Letters from all my dear ones and friends
came this week to cheer me up. Of all the days,
Sunday seems the most lonely to me. I think of the
children and wonder what they are doing and how they are passing the
time. God give me patience and strength to hold out
faithful till my time of release comes that I may rejoin them.
A letter from Uncle "H" advises me of the serious illness
Apr. 10 - Sister T. and I have spent a very nice day in
tracting. Met a sweet little woman, a Mrs. R--- who
asked me several questions after we had held a little cottage meeting
with her. She believed polygamy was alright only so
far as connecting the great social evil, but could not see that it was
a divine command or that any other good could result from it.
The people of the world do not realize the moral depravity
admitted by such statements. They are indeed in
darkness. After explanations on this subject, she
could see that it was a beautiful principle if supported by the faith
we manifest and really believe in its having a divine 141. origin.
Another lady who received us very chillingly, melted to
tears at our singing and when we spoke of the love of Christ for all
men, she said she had been wicked and had no hope of---. Then
it became our pleasure to point out to her the way of forgiveness, by
sincere repentance etc. and when we left, she felt calmer and more
hopeful, and most cordially invited us to return. Several
other similar experiences we passed, which is to say the least, wearing
on our nerves, and we came home very tired, but rejoicing that we had
done our duty in the fullest sense of what we understood.
April 12. This morning quite early I
took the car to
April 17. I was agreeably surprised to meet Jod--Curtis here on Friday evening. He has come to fill a mission in the Central States and I think he will make a good missionary. He was accompanied by six other Elders all for the same mission. We had a long talk about schooling the students, our friends and the memorable trip to St. Lawrence. In tracting we met with several experiences which made a deep impression on me. I think women are naturally more reverential than men.144. Sometimes we go to the lady's homes, meet with a cordial reception, hold cottage meetings and are warmly invited to return. We feel perfectly elated over it, and rejoice that we have probably found out one honest soul who will listen to our message. When all our hopes will be dashed to the ground, on our return visit by hearing, "My husband is much opposed to your returning and I do not desire to displease him, so you need not come again." And this is quite often. But thank God not all are so narrow-minded, and although we see small fruits for our efforts, still we have the satisfaction of knowing we do 145. our best and our desires never lag. The Holy Spirit attends us and if we are faithful and humble the Lord will reward each according to his merit. Wrote home yesterday.
20. We are having regular April showers.
One hour sunshine and the next rain. Pres.
D. is very busy since he came last March in getting the new
missionaries appointed to their new fields of labor. He
30. So ends April of 1905. I
have had so many letters the last week it will be impossible for me to
answer them any time soon, besides I feel that my stay here is short
now indeed, and I must put all my time at the disseminating of the
Gospel. Of course this is only my own private
thoughts and it may all be false, but I have the thought at any rate.
Last week our tracting was unusual. On
Wednesday we went over to Sister Wilson's house 149. for
R.S. meeting and we accomplished quite a task on the quilts, but dear
me, such very loud talkers as the sisters are. Their
voices are so highly pitched and so shrill that I really got so nervous
I had to leave the room several times. Oh to be
with our more cultivated sisters at home, and feel the gentle grasp of
their hand! Yesterday we went to K.C.K., a long
ride it is, too, to see one of the Saints, but did not find her at home.
Our route took us by the hospital - an imposing structure
built on a hill and surrounded by a beautiful lawn, and this by a big
iron fence. Its location seems to be in a very
In the early part of the week, a cousin of Mrs. Thomas
May 1st, revisited. May 2nd, Tuesday,
Sister T. ill and I went to the Gallery with the Elders and had my
photo taken. Short meeting. Wed.
3rd. R.S. meeting at Sister Brown's at K.C.K.
She is so wavering in her relgion it is impossible to put
dependence in her, although she is Pres. of the Society. One
day she is a Latter day Saint, the next an Advent and then a Josephite.
When Pres. Duffin comes I think he will straighten matters
out. On Thursday we held a R.S. business meeting
here at the mission house at which only four were present. Elder
Grant's father and mother came from
8. On Saturday evening - 6th - all the missionaries
visited the commencement exercises of the Central Graduates of the
154. Tuesday, 9. Today we visited some of the Saints and tracted down near --- Avenue. An enjoyable time was the result and consequently, we felt built up and strengthened in our testimonies.
10. One year today since I left home. Today
our R.S. met at Sister McCarthy's and almost finished making a quilt.
There were fifteen sister present and we had arranged to
have our photo taken together as a Society, but the President, Sister
Brown, was called to the death-bed of her sister-in-law at
11. Tracting and visiting as usual. Sr.
12. Held two cottage meetings at Mrs. West's who
has been so ill for a long time. She is very much
interested but we think her husband is not willing for her to come out
to our meetings. They seem to be a very loving
family, and have two beautiful little boys. A
letter from Sister Martin tells me she feels very much discouraged
about going West, and begs me to vist her before I go. Pres.
Wootton has returned from Nauvoo and a trip through 157. He was much disappointed that
I did not meet him in Montrose as per calculations. We
have made arrangements to go up to
13. A steady down pour of rain has kept us indoors
all day. I ran over to Mrs. ___ and finished my
waist in the afternoon. But towards evening it
cleared and got mild enough to hold street meetings. Elder
Sunday 14. I awoke scarcely in time to
get down to practice. Of all things I most dislike
is to be late to my duties. But I was kept up last
night surely against my will and could not help it. We
had a good teacher's meeting and Sunday school. At we assembed in the parlor for
practice and went down in the street immediately where we were
addressed by Elder Morrison. It was certainly the
best sermon I have heard in many a day. He was
blessed with unusual flow of language and such a good spirit the people
listened most attentively.
159. Monday 15. This afternoon we went and tracted a large flat, had one cottage meeting and had just succeeded in getting in another place when a high wind struck town. The sky grew so black that people in the flats feared a cyclone. The lady was so frightened she asked us to excuse her and we started for home. Just as we were crossing the street the rain came down in torrents and we ran for the shelter of another flat. A lady was standing in the door. We told her who we were and asked to come in but she made an excuse saying the house was torn up in cleaning. We might enjoy shelter of the arch if we liked, etc. I verily believe she was afraid of us. After a little 160. while, the rain ceased somewhat and we came home as quickly as possible, but were so wet that it necessitated a change of linen all through.
17. I dreamed last night that an enemy came here to
the mission house, and asked regarding a telegram, but I knew it was
only an excuse to try to do me harm, and made up my mind to go quietly
away to meeting and perhaps Sister ___ would invite me to remain the
night with her and I should be able to elude this enemy who was in the
form of a man. I got quietly out of the house and
the next I remember walking a long steet with Will (her brother and
wife) and Emma, 161. always keeping a look out that I was not followed.
In passing what seemed like a Post Office, I recognized my
enemy among the crowd, but thought he did not see me. I
traveled on, now seeming alone over a lonely road, the ground covered
with snow and ice and in approaching a curve where a creek ran, imagine
my horror in seeing this man seated upon the bank apparently waiting
for me. The place was lonely. I
could see no human being in sight and as I quickened my step to hurry
past, he threw out one of his feet to trip me, but I stepped lightly
and quickly by increasing my walk to a run. He
called for me to stop. I ran on only glancing back
to see he was pointing a pistol at me.
I was very much frightened, but felt intuitively that he
really could do me no harm. I had now a child with
me, a boy of about three years, and it seemed to be Wallace.
I loved him and strived hard to keep him as well as myself
from the enemy. The child was perfectly nude, and
clung to my hands as if he, too, feared for us. I
was running now across an open level field through the snow.
The child greatly impeded my progress, but I thought our
lives depended on reaching a house on a hill in the distance where I
knew my friends were, and I should be safe. I came
at last to the foot of the hill and it was so steep -- and slippery
that I felt I could 163. never reach the top unless the
Lord gave me strength for I was about spent. So I
prayed aloud "O my Heavenly Father, strengthen, support, and help me up
this hill." We began the ascent, the child still
clinging tightly to me, and after many slippings and fallings and
exertion, we stood on the top. I had thought if I
only gained the top of the hill, the path would be an easy one to the
home, but was confronted by a winding, tortuous, slippery, sidling path
which was a greater risk to take than any before. I
looked backwards but my enemy was not gaining on me, so breathing a
prayer, I began the terrible path. I felt that the
least misstep would be my utter annihilation 164.and that of the child.
Very cautiously, and slowly, I was obliged to feel each
step before taking it. Night was lowering and the
light gleaming from the windows ahead I knew would afford the shelter
and rest I so much needed and bring me to my friends. I
cannot tell the long time it took us to traverse this path.
Every moment we seemed in imminent danger of slipping into
the deep cavern below, but through the great faith I knew I exerted,
and my careful, cautious, steps, at last when I felt that I could not
go longer, when my breath was spent and my strength gone, I fell across
the doorsill unconscious; only realizing that I 165. would
be safe from my enemy and that kind faces bent over me, and my child.
Then I awoke. As a rule, I am not a
believer of dreams, but when one so vivid as this, one that makes such
an impression for days on my mind, I think they are given as a warning.
My dreams mainly are only imaginings of the brain,
something that fade as quickly as it comes. This is
different. It has haunted me all day, until I
resolved to put it in my journal. I feel that it
has been given me as a warning of some dangerous trouble yet to come.
Whatever it is, I hope to be able to exercise the faith I
had in my dream, and be able to go through any trial 166. the
Lord see fit to put upon me. This morning I gave
the lesson on Church History. It was most of the
5th Chapter of the 2nd vol. and took 20 min. The
usual time allotted is 10 min. for each speaker. I
had studied hard and had it better than the last. This
afternoon the R.S. met at Sister M. and finished the quilt.
There were seven present. While we
worked, one read from the Young Ladies journal. Took
supper with Sr. M. Came home and prepared for
street meeting, at which Elder Carpenter, Farnsworth and myself spoke.
Quite a good crowd stopped to listen. Am
very tired and will retire. It is now
Saturday 20th - Yesterday evening while we were all
assembled for singing practice in the back parlor, Pres. Duffin walked
in, and quite surprised us, for he was not expected until next week.
After the street meeting, we had hopes of some
conversation with him, but being very tired, he had gone to bed and
this was what we all did as soon as possible. It
takes a continuous effort on my part to keep up, and as the hot weather
approaches, it tires me severely. Going all day and
meetings every night, we are never in bed before 10.15, and it is
wearing on a person. Pres. D. occupied the whole
time of the class this morning telling us about his trip South among
the conferences of the mission.
His talk was a most practical one and very interesting.
He goes --- this evening for a short time. We
went re-visiting this afternoon among the Sunday school children but
found only a part of them at home. Elder
22. Yesterday, Sunday, we accompanied Elders
Stratford and Steele up to
May 24. Today had a good time tracting in an aristocratic part of town and held three cottage meetings at new places, and had several interesting conversations besides. Gave out a number of tracts. Street meeting at night.
24. We spent today at
Thursday 25. Another good day of tracting; visited a number of homes, held three cottage meetings and gave tracts, cards and papers, street meeting at night.
26. This evening Pres. D. left for
Saturday 27. Just one year today since
I came to
173. 28. Of all my days, Sunday is the most lonely. We have practices for Sunday School singing at , then prayer. At we assemble for Teacher's meeting - at Sunday School proper, which lasts until . Then go to dinner and back by . If it is fair we have street meeting, if not we sit around and enjoy a religious conversation, which I admit is very comfortable. But when the evening comes on and I see so many people enjoying the fresh air in their buggies, carriages, or autos, my mind goes back to my home and my usual way of spending Sunday evening. I think they are all out now in their different vehicles, just enjoying themselves immensely.
I almost envy the times they are having, and their
association with one another. I think of each one
in turn and know their thoughts are not out here with me, for they have
so many at home to love that it takes all their attention. Oh,
well, so be it. I pull myself sharply together and
catechize myself. Are those, who are sent out here
as missionaries, repining? Am I mourning for my
--- and onions? Would I change
positions if I could? No to all three questions.
I only pray for grace to fill my mission as becomes a
servant of my Heavenly Father, and I hope to do my duty in all things
and under all circumstances.
175. Monday 29. Today we visited thirteen houses in tracting and had three cottage meetings. We meet so many different kinds of people and denominations. One Christian Science woman said our faith is just like hers from all she has heard, but when several principles were explained to her, she concluded that our belief was quite different. So many know so little about it, but when "Mormon's" are mentioned, they have heard a great deal. In our Priesthood meeting tonight, we had a good spirit and all enjoyed it.
30. All the population of
The four of us, Elders Shurtliff and Farnsworth, Sister
Thomas and myself, boarded the car and went to
Wed. 31st - This morning Bro. Pyne from
179. June 1st. A letter from Lalia informed me that Bessie (Note: Bessie Merrill, her sister) has another boy, and is doing well. Lalia is staying with her, and Eliza had just left. I am thankful it is all over.
June 4th. On Friday evening we were surprised by
receiving a telegram from Emma Ramsey, the beautiful singer from
We have several new Elders for this mission, some of whom
are greatly prepared for their work, others very ignorant. But
I find out that the Heavenly Father fits and prepares them for his work
by slow degrees, and there is no better school for young men.
Yesterday we went re-visiting and held three cottage
meetings on a most enjoyable afternoon. On Friday,
I went out alone, my companion having gone to
- We had no street meeting
today 183. on account of the heat, but had a good rest,
and at regular services in the evening were addressed by Elder
5th - Today while tracting we met a man with whom the Elders have
talked in regard to the Latter Day religion. He
declares the Book of Mormon a fake, Joseph Smith a false prophet, and
all of it a hum-bug. But there is something about
him that I believe he will yet join the church. He
is very hospitable to the Mormons, and begged us to return again and
talk with him. Obtained access in his place once,
but had fine cottage meeting at both. Our usual
Priesthood meeting in the evening.
Wednesday June 7th. The R.S. met and we quilted our second quilt. The Elders were delighted and all had a chance 187. to sew. The dinner passed off very pleasantly. Mrs. Dusard called in the afternoon with her daughter. At street-meeting I was asked lots but cannot remember what I said except something on faith. This is quite a trial to me yet, but hope to overcome it by faith and diligence.
June 11. Another Sunday is here. I
wonder how all my dear ones are today - my thoughts always return to
them on the sabbath. This morning I had to exert myself before I could
make up my mind to get up. I did double duty
yesterday in doing all my washing and a part of the ironing.
Sr. T. having a sore throat, we did not go to street
meeting last night.
June 17. This week has been full of
the blessings of the Lord to me in a spiritual sense. In
tracting, revisiting, cottage-meeting and my lessons here. Have
spoken twice in street meetings and felt that the Lord did indeed bless
me, both in fortitude and words. On Wednesday when
we arrived at Sr. Macintosh's for R.S. meeting, we were much too early.
A colored school across the way was holding their
commencement exercises, so I went over, never before having the
privilege of even seeing a school of that kind. I
was highly entertained with the antics of the negroes. The
principal gave me the seat of honor, I being the only white woman in
the room, and in making his report, addressed 189. the
greater part to me. He said the negroes were coming
to the front, shoulder to shoulder with the whites. That
his graduating class could wade into mensuration like a picaninny
eating pie, and his speech was sublimely ridiculous in many ways.
Spoke of his own graduation from a
20. Elder Shurtliff was released from his mission
and started home tonight on the 191. train for
June 25th. Sunday again comes around,
a day of rest. It is very warm in --- and a hot
wind blowing. A letter from Nettie came this
morning and I was delighted to get it. In Sunday
School we had a chapter on authority, and it was thoroughly discussed
by members of the whole class. Pres. Duffin
unexpectedly returned to the mission this morning, and we were pleased
to see him after a four week absence since 27th. This
day inaugurates my fourteenth month in the mission field and it hardly
seems possible that the time goes so swiftly. This
morning, Elder William Flake of
3. This is another fast day. How
soon the months roll around. We had a good teachers
and sunday school meeting this morning. Brother
Ellsworth of the N. S. mission is spending the day here. We
have had torrents of rain this morning which will materially affect the
river. Everything looks green and fresh.
I was confined to the house two days with sick headache -
the worst attack I have had for two years or more. Our
work, otherwise, was interesting as usual, consisting of the tracting
and revisiting. Street meetings are a growing
feature of our labor here in
July 3. We have a very poorly attended Sunday School on account of the heavy storm of 198. wind and rain coming up at ---o'clock, and lasting the entire day and evening. Instead of meeting, Pres. Duffin had us all group ourselves around him in the parlor and he read to us splendid sermons, one of Brigham Young, and the other of Joseph Smith's. As they both had a bearing upon our work, we listened most attentively, and a conversation ensued which was very instructive. No one came --- and the whole evening was taken up in discussing the principle of this, our holy religion.
July 4th. At we took our picnic and the
whole company boarded the car for
5th. We went to K.C.K. (Note: Kansas
City, Kansas) to the Relief Society meeting at Sister B's, then home
and prepared for our street meeting which was a most successful one;
the men who had been so much a nuisance being conspicuous by their
July 9th Sunday - How rapidly the weeks roll around, and
as each one passes, I realize that I have but a few more weeks to
July 11. I made the rounds among six
families of the Saints today, 201. and held three cottage
meetings, enjoying it very well. They are not
energetic in their duties and it is very hard to get them to see what
blessings they are denying themselves by staying away from their
meetings and neglecting their privileges. It was
late when I came home, but went to street meeting. Last
night in Priesthood we voted to celebrate the 24th of July, our Pioneer
July 12. Held Society Meeting at Armoundale, at Sister Williams'. The day was very warm and I always get a severe headache from the poisoned atmosphere of the packing houses. The weather, until today, for this past week has been very cool. The river is high.
Thursday - July 13. Today we went to
20. Another week has passed and not a word written
in my journal. So many things occur, too, that I
should be so glad to read and remember 203. in the years
to come. On Saturday last we went to
25. Yesterday we took our picnic and went out to
Aug. 3rd - We are finishing up our work preparatory to
leaving the mission. The Elders have accompanied us
to the homes of our friends --- to get acquainted with them, that they
may carry on this work we have begun. We have had
times of rejoicing and held many splendid cottage meetings.
207. That night I witnessed a great fire down on Grand. It was a magnificent sight yet a terrible one. The rain fell, but the stone house went up in smoke and flames.
Aug. 5 - I was sent for to come to the parlor today and what was my
pleasure and astonishment to find there Bp. and Sr. Welker of
209. Aug. 7. Today we wound up our missionary work by taking the Elders and introducing them to our remaining friends, holding cottage meetings and talking on the Gospel. Pres. Duffin said this evening we were to work no more but prepare to go home and have all in readiness by Wed. morning. 8th. I went downtown this morning to buy a few things necessary for my traveling, and at joined Sr. T. and together we went to Sr.B's. over in K.C.K. for dinner according to a previous invitation. We found a sumptious repast awaiting us and enjoyed an hour or two of a visit with her. She feels that the R.S. will fall through now, but we talked and encouraged her to keep it alive, pointing out the importance 210. of a R.S. in Jackson Co. - the promised land. She felt better and declared her desire to go to wrok with renewed energy. We returned home, packed our trunks and performed the hundred and one little things necessary for so long a journey. It was announced that there would be no street meeting for that evening, so at we assembled in the parlor for a little social. It was opened by singing and prayer, then Elder Morrison made a little speech on "The Lady Missionary". Pres. Duffin followed and they said so many good things I began to think we were very good sisters. Elders Farnsworth and Smith each sang a solo, then I was 211. asked to speak. I thanked them all for their kindness to me and for the lessons I had learned from each, for the strength and the support received from all. I then read a dream, supposed to have come to me the night previous, looking forward twenty years which was received with most extravagant applause. After another speech or two, we adjourned to the dining room where all kinds of fruits, cakes, and ice cream were served in fine style, and all seemed to enjoy themselves to the utmost, keeping in mind that we are servants of the Lord, and not a word, tone, or look was --- in unbecoming to an ambassador of the Gospel. We were presented 212. with a beautiful, little copy of Whitten's poems, leather-bound, from the Elders and a copy of the new edition of the Book of Mormon by Pres. Duffin, also his photo. We were the recipients of many little tokens of love and esteem by the saints who felt much regret at our leaving. At we all said good night and retired, for the morrow would be a momentous one to us in that we had finished our mission and felt that we could now depart in peace for our far-off distant homes.
9. All the good-byes have been said, not without a
few tears, and accompanied by Elders Morrison, Spilsbury and
Farnsworth, we arrived at the depot in good 213. time,
find a good seat, deposit our trunks in a safe place, say goodbye to
them and we are moving to the West. The day was
very warm and the motion of the car made me feel quyite ill for several
hours, but as evening came on, and we neared the mountains, were much
revived by the cool air. We passed a comfortable
night in our berth, arriving at
215. Tuesday 15. We took a ride up the canyon last evening and I truly enjoyed it - the pleasant, cool air, the grand scenery, the clear water, and all that was to be. This morning I received letters from home, also from Sr. Boley. I met Elder Shurtliff and Nettie McKay, both of whom were my former companions in the missionary field. We were pleased to renew our old acquaintance, and talk of old times.
18thg. Yesterday morning at ,
Nettie McKay came for me to go home to make her a visit. We
- Arrived here in beautiful
22. Never have I enjoyed a visit in this place better. We talk all the time, reminding each other of the days of our girlhood and hopes of the future. I find Gertrude a beautiful girl in spirit and disposition and encourage her to work hard at school this year and join me next year to teach. Her mother falls in with our views. Yesterday afternoon, we went 218. to cousin Mattie's to a dinner in my honor. A few of my friends were present and we had a most enjoyable evening. Supper was served in four courses. Eddie and Leah were there.
Last night we were invited to --- the birth of Bro. and
Sr. L. little son and enjoyed it very much. Went
riding every day this week. Was invited to speak in
Spoke in the meeting house Sun. at the invitation of the
Bp. Had a good flow of the Spirit, and was listened
to attentively. The Bp. made the statement that I
was the first returned lady-missionary to speak in their 219.
meetings of that ward. Came back to
The ticket came today, good until Sept. 10, but I feel
that I must go home tomorrow morning. Gertie and I
were out for a drive this morning. I went with my
sister to see and visit Aunt Zina Card and was cordially received.
She is a very lovely woman. She showed
us many relics of her father's and the Prophet's; spectacular drawings,
[Copied from the missionary journal of Josephine Cluff Kimball by David R. Phillips (great-grandson). Finished on